I’ve hit the wall tonight. I sat down to study and I just couldn’t. For a moment I couldn’t see how graduation would even be possible. Sleep deprivation had me swearing like a sailor this morning and after 2 classes, on the spot class cancelation (due to winter), a long drive, a short nap, a hamburger, some popcorn, and working many hours later, life did not look too hopeful. I’ve been going in and out of the light at an impressive rate.
I just found out a good friend has aggressive cancer that has metastasized to the liver. I am definitely in denial and shock with a tad of anger, disappointment, and tears.
I had to make some changes to my schedule and I do feel guilty about cutting down my hours. I feel obligated to my boss and co-workers and it’s not easy to disappoint or feel like you’re not living up to every expectation, but the main concern right now is that I finish nursing school. Now is not the time for faint of heart and I know that. I’ve made 2 70%’s in the last week 1 quiz and 1 test. I can’t be making grades like that and certainly not at the very beginning of the semester. So I will change I will study more and harder and cut down hours and sleep less. Whatever I have to do to graduate in May. We are so close. Too close to give up on being successful now.
-Successful Now
The RN journey 