I wish I could say I’ve been a consistent blogger, but we all know that is not the case. I have procrastinated, I have felt so burnt out that I couldn’t accomplish much. I sat outside the testing center after ob clinicals today thinking “what the hell.” I wonder what I’m doing with my life. This is not a great program, as all the community reviews seem to say. Our instructors are collectively uncoordinated and there are so many different off the wall styles and preferences among them that it’s crazy. This program does not have a uniform effort. Another student discussed the lack of uniformity in this program and she was right. Its almost like there’s no clear direction and no clear way to get there. You just float along trying to make each individual masters degree happy. Too many bosses all running their corner of the show, and why shouldn’t they? If you have a masters degree I think you deserve to be in charge, but they ALL have masters degrees at this college; remember?
Theres only 2 teachers so far that I have felt are amazing at connecting with and encouraging students to learn. They really embody what I believe a leader and an educator should be like.
Our class is not fairing that well as a whole… The level 2 semester 1 group is a divided class of mismatched individuals who can’t get along that great. I’ve known and documented this from the beginning, and I’ve tried to stay impartial and out of this Loop of Henley, but I finally broke down and private messaged one of these children regarding her rudeness. This ever lingering superiority complex that I see so often from this young lady has to stop. Maybe she’s not always so bad, but I got nothing positive to go off of yet. I was pushed to say something when a classmate candidly expressed that nobody stands up to her and everyone just ignors it….. Hmmmm when does letting it go and being the bigger person by not saying anything actually go too far? So I decided to say something. I know I would NOT want her as my nurse if she treated me with even half of the attitude that she has been.
That reminds me… my LPN friend and I stumbled upon an original idea of Maslows Hiarchy as a continuum. She put it in her PowerPoint on Mon and the teacher was impressed. She sent me a picture of the PowerPoint slide and we intend on expounding on our thesis. I am leary to post it here but I would like it online as proof….. Wel see.
Back in the clinical setting, I got to watch a surgery today and do post op care. This clinical group is a good one, but I get so tired of all of them at times. Maybe I’m the oddball that no one understands … I don’t really care, I am just disappointed cause I thought we were making steps towards closing the gap and connecting with each other. I guess not. Sometimes they just talk and talk making jokes and not being serious unless they have to be At times they barely let me speak before they assume they know what I’m saying and they jump at it, leaving me to defend myself before I have even completed a thought. I’ve only starting to come out of a depressed world that I still struggle with and they aren’t helping the situation that much.
I’m very good with patients, I’m willing to work, to learn, to help, and to teach. I love teaching. I’m a good teacher too, but I need more education, and this is not optimal learning. The only reason I see how this college turns out “the best nurses” is that the only ones left standing in the end are strong and knowledgeable SOB’s who got there mostly of their own accord.
-Their own accord
The RN journey 